Months ago, we sat around a board table, alongside faithful souls who have been in these trenches with us for over six years, and we faced a challenging reality. And, for the first time in years, I wasn’t anxious at the propositions. Truth is, I have come to care less and less about the actual work of this ministry. But, not in a cynical, unhappy way. I’m just coming to a certain realization lately:
The less I love the work, the more I love Jesus.
The work of this ministry has broken us, inflicted us emotionally, inspired us, moved us, and fueled us. It’s been fulfilling as well as frustrating. It’s been beautiful and enough of a blankedty-blank mess that I’ve been mercifully forced to allow God to reframe my thinking.
Maybe you know what I mean. Maybe you, too, have zeroed in on the serving while the Who went out of focus in the background – and have then felt the enormous, exhausting burden of it, so much so that you too have embraced an aha moment: there has to be a better way. [Read more…]